Michael and I have been talking. For hours yesterday and today. My mind is racing with so many thoughts and my heart is feeling so many feelings. He said he misses us and wants us to come home.

Part of me wants to believe him, but part of me feels like he is is just saying it. I dont know. I hadn't heard from him in 8 days. EIGHT. That is not acceptable to me. At all. Its not want I want out of a relationship, out of my marriage.


Dont get me wrong. Mchael has so many good qualities about him, but his shortcomings are big ones. I do not deserve to be lied to. I do not deserve to feel less the amazing. I do not deserve to be belittled. I know I have my faults as well. Im controlling, jealous and insecure. I know I dont make Michael feel his best either. We have a lot of work to do and things to try to address. I asked him today if when hes down here, would he be willing to go to marriage counseling. He said he would go.

My mind is going crazy. My head and my heart are in conflict. Not a good thing. He's coming down between the 26-31st. It will be a very hard and good visit at the same time. Wish me luvk folks and send prayers my way.....

Anyways, boy start school tomorrow and I am going to fill out an application at the local Humane Society. I sen in my resume but they also need an on site app filled out as well. HOPEFULLY it will go good. Lord knows Ive been trying to get a job forever!

I will keep you all posted with things as they develop.

Thanks for stopping by----

Bowling, Boo Boos Like Daddy & COLLEGE for Me

{Sorry for the grainy quality. My lil point and shoot was set to High ISO in order to capture these photos in such dim light!}

Last night we went bowling. My hub was trying to cheer me up. Why you ask? Well, the little boy I watch during the day is getting another sitter. Well, Nanny, actually. His mom wants someone who can watch him and clean up for her while she is at work.(she is a Kindergarten teacher) Plus, her hubby is deploying very soon and it would be a better fit for their family.

I must admit that I cried. I am so sad about it, which sort of surprised me. Now, Ive watched a lot of kids in my years, so I figured letting go would be no biggie. Well, I've earned this little mans trust. He likes me. I make funny faces and he laughs at me. He actually wants me to hold him. {In the beginning he wanted nothing to do with me.} My Hailey loves loves loves him! I kid you not. The two weeks over Christmas break {where I didn't gave him} she asked for him almost everyday.

"Mama...Baby Roydal?" ( his name is Royal and thats how she says his name..)

I am sure she will adjust, but it will not be easy. I'm just gald I got to get to know him and his mom and dad. I know we will still see him for playdates {once in a while} so it won't be tooo bad.

Anyways,

This was Zach and Hailey's first time bowling. Mikey went once before with his friend Gabe back when we were stationed in Kansas. The kids had a blast. Mikey, as always, was super hard on himself and kept getting upset that Z was winning. {how the heck Z won is beyond me....at points, the ball seemed like it was going to stop in the middle of the lane, it was going soooo slow! ha!}


MMMM! The bowling alley pizza was da bomb!!!

{"What, mom? Im trying to eat here!}


{"Oh yea, there's my ball!"}




Mikey bustin' out some serious moves!!!






Awwwww!


Mikey with some more moves!







This is Hailey sleeping with her Boo Boo foot. Well, not really. There's no boo boo. Daddy had an ace bandage he brought home from the ER and Hailey found it and brought it to hub. He wrapped her foot with it and refused to take it off~~

for two days.

Ya, no joke. She's so stinkin cute!


Look at her smiling1 Must be dreaming about that baby of hers. She loves that lil baby. {who has no official name. When asked what the baby's name is, she says "Baby."}

I am looking into going back to school to become an RN {Registered Nurse, folks.} Since Michael ETS'(gets out) in 2 years from the Army, I decided that doing daycare just wasn't the right thing for me in the"civilian" world. Yes, I know that technically I am a civilian, but I am still a part of the militaty lifestyle......

I don't think that daycare will be nearly as booming as it is here on post, and frankly, the pay isn't great for the importance of the job and the dedication it requires. Soooo, I went back to plan B.

Or was it C?  D possibly?!?!?!

I wanted to be an RN wayyy back in the good ol' highschool days, but put those dreams on hold once I had my kids. Now, I want to set a good example for them. because unlike me,{who had the choice on weather or not I would attend college} my children will NOT have that option. They all will go to college right out of HS. I just turned 28 and am going back for my AA then my BA in Nursing. Starting "over" now, at my age, is well......

{embarrassing}

Don't get me wrong...I'm excited and proud as hell of myself for "taking the leap" but it would have been nicer if I pulled my head out of my pa-tootie yearssss ago!

When the hubs gets out, we will be moving to GA.{close to both of our families!}

I am in the admission process now and will begin studying for the COMPASS test for placement in a few days. I plan to take the test in February or March and online classes start end of may. Then once we get to GA, I can just transfer to the university since the online classes are given by the same college.

Ya,

So thats whats been going on round these parts! Tons of info, I know. but at least it makes up a good post, right?!?! LOL!

Anyways, take it easy and I'll see you all again real soon!

                                                                          AufWeidersehen!

Golf, First Day of Kindergarten & Family Reunions

Hello my lovely readers! (thats if I still have any!) Its been wayyy to long since I have posted!!! So, today I come with an update.

First, I will start off with Zachary's first day of Kindergarten. Yes, I am aware it was 13 days ago....Im way behind on everything. And for no good reason!

He's been in for about 2 weeks now & already knows how to write his whole name! Super cool! He's a stubborn lil child and has come home with a few yellows....One for pushing a boy on the playground and one for playing in line and another one for running in class...... He will be the death of me! (im really only kidding...sort of!)

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Hub finally is out of his cast and his walking boot. He is sooo happy to be better. He celebrated with golf. He hearts golf...a lot! Here are some pictures from his first 18 holes after his surgery.

                                        
                                                  My Seriously smokin' hubby!

The hubs and I were super lucky to have my mama volunteer to watch the kids so we could go out by ourselves. We went to a new golf course in Ramstein, which was surrounded by trees. The manager told us it is nicknamed Woodland Symphany because so many people hit the trees and the golf balls sound like the ball in a pinball machine. It was a very nice day. After that we went to the commissary and the BX/PX. We spent all day and most of the night out. It was a much needed break. THANKS AGAIN mama! Here are some pictures from our day at the course.
                                                                      
                                                              LOVE this first one!

And one for fun.......

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As for the family reunion thing....Michael's family is planning one. First it was going to be in Georgia where his uncle and cousins (who are like brothers) live. Next thing we know, one of his other cousins decides to have it moved to N. Carolina. I am a bit annoyed at this because GA is close to FL where Michael's mom and brother Jesse live. Not to mention all his nieces and nephews. Also, my family is in FL. My younger brother Bryan and his wife Stephanie are having their first baby (Ian) in October. Im going to be an Aunt...well, a blood related Aunt anyways. I am not too thrilled about the idea of going to Carolina when we are making a huge trip back to the States. I'd rather spend our time with more members of both of our families.

Hubby said he wants to see who says they are going up there and who will not be going. He said if his cousins don't go up, then we will probably just end up going to GA and FL.(I'm keeping my fingers crossed, can you tell!?!?!) That's all thats going on 'round these parts. Hopefully, I will not take as long to post next time.....
                                                              
                                                                   AufWeidersehen!