Where to begin. I just got a phone call from my mom confirming that my grandpa has passed away. He has had many heart problems and diabetes for a longgg time.He's underwent triple bypass surgeries, a brain surgery, countless strokes and heart attacks......for as long as I can remember. This never slowed him down though. He was always on the go and loved finding a great deal or something for free. My mom and I would joke all the time that he wasted more gas traveling all over tarnation to get one thing free. He was so funny for an old guy. seriously people. I don't think Ive ever met a funnier old dude in my life. I just cannot believe he's gone. I guess we all knew that this day was coming sooner or later, we just all hoped later.
I'm having a hard time because my rock isn't here to hold me up right now. I'm trying to be as strong as i can be. not only for my kids, but my mom. I cant imagine what shes going through. Well, yes i can. if it was my mom or dad who died...well. there ya go.
Its probably been about 2 years since I last saw him. It was for Christmas and we had a good time visiting. I'm glad that he didn't feel any pain when he left this world. He was too sweet of a man to have deal with that. I'm struggling because I need to be there for the funeral but I'm due in 2 weeks and cant fly. even if i could, i cannot afford to fly down there. Heck, i cant even afford the gas to drive to FL. I need to be there for my mom and grandma. I don't know. I don't know. Maybe if I can talk to my hubby he will have a better suggestion. For now, I will wait till my mom is ready to talk about preparations. I have only one picture of him and its from the last time we saw him...almost 2 years ago. (sorry for the glare..its a picture of the picture, but you can still see his lovely face)
Take care everyone and as with all loss, remember that every day is a gift and no one is guaranteed a tomorrow. tell your loved ones and more importantly SHOW them what they mean to you.
Pop'l berry....you will be missed and will forever be in our hearts. I love you!