Im A CNA Baby!!!!!

Yes, it's official! As of Saturday, yours truly is a Certified Nursing Assistant!!! I was soooo nervous about taking the State test, but I did GREAT! In 2 weeks I will have a license number but I can work now as long as I show my pass results to an employer.  Yipeeeee! Hopefully this certification will make job hunting a tad bit easier......


School starts in January. Registration is on the 11 of this month..or the 10th??? (guess I better double check!) Im super excited!! In a way, I am really grateful for this separation. Most of it I dont like, but I dont think I would have ever gotten to this point in my head had Michael and I stayed together without taking a break. I was in MOM MODE totally. I didnt know who I was anymore, let alone a wife. I had a big part in the crappy-ness of our marriage as well as Michael did.

We have decide that we will work things out. Divorce is not an option. We both have agreed to try to see each other as allies, not someone who is out to get the other. We both get defensive wayyy too easily and thats when the walls go up and the communication goes down.....

6 weeks and he will be down here visiting again for Xmas. 3-5 MONTHS and he will be out for good! Then he is coming down here and we are going to determine whats going to happen from there.....we both don't want to spend forever in FL (we LOVE fall) so we are exploring our options as to where our forever home may be.

This thing called life is a crazy journey. Im trying to soak in all the learning. Man, its crazy. I look forward to the day when God explains it all.....and it will make perfect sense.

Till next time------------

Hello from my new Apartment!

I am writing to you all from my new apartment!!! Yipee! Well, sort of. You must all be thinking : Wow, you must have gotten a kick a*s job to be in a place already!!!\
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Wrong.

I have an amazing Mama who is helping me out MUCHO! She tells me that its ok because when shes old and needs someone to change her depends, IM her lady! Bwhahahaha!! Thats the least I would and will do for her! Im PUMPED and the place is beautiful. 2 bedroom, 2 bathroom...its perfect. My dad and his GF have given me a nice futon, some dishes lamps and an entertainment center and my grandma and her BF gave me a queen bed and a nite table, as well as a folding table to use until the rest of our furniture gets here. Oh and my brother Chris gave me a faltscreen too.....

The help has been amazing. Albeight hard to take. It's very humbling.

Moving on. {because needing help is a hard thing for me to chew}

Things on the Michael side of things have taken a turn for the worst {or maybe they are for the best?!?!?} Right now it feels like it's for the worst.

 He told me he went on a date.

Yeah.

It's only been a month we've been apart folks. And he said he loves/d me??? Hmmmm. Funny way of showing it. I talked to my amazing friend Dave {my BFF Selena's hubby} and he told me that I cannot be treated like a garbage bag.

Yeah again.

Wow. Michael cannot have his cake and eat it too. He wants to act single and BE single yet have us on the back burner...maybe Im wrong. I mean everything points to us NOT being on the back burner, but OFF the burner completly. Urgh.

My new saying..."it is what it is."

God has a plan and I have to remember that its in His time. Not mine.

The kids are doing good. They seem a lot happier now that we have our own home. Missing Daddy,but thats a given. No job as of yet, but am pursuing 3 leads this week. We'll see how that goes.

Thats a really quick update folks, because basically, Im pooped. Im gonna sit and watch some TV that ISNT cartoon or The Fairly Odd Parents Movie {again}:)

Goodnight all and have a great weekend!

Death of Osama Bin Laden!

I woke up this morning and Michael told me that Bin Laden was dead! I couldnt believe it! Then I saw this video by President Obama



So what do you guys think? Do you think there will be more violence now that Bin Laden is gone? It feels amazing that the person in charge of 9/11 is dead, but I know that that is not the end of our worries.

Anyways take some time to remember that day and pray for the families of the fallen.